have you found your Resolutio for new year?, I choose for have no resolution at all because for me now this year will follow my will and I will live by more slow, enjoyable and do whatever i like to do. For me there’s no reason to get hurry for everything I’ve just settle it down my self and let more doing goodness to everything.
So, I choose no RESOLUTION for NEW YEAR
To Whom it May Concern
List of ingredients found by chemical analysis that have been used to cut street heroin sold in New York City from 1991 to 1996.
As reported in a 2000 review paper on trends in NYC heroin adulterants:
Acetaminophen (Analgesic)
Aminopyrine (Anti-inflammatory)
Amitryptaline (Anti-depressant)
Antipyrine (Body water measurement)
Benzoczine (Anesthetic)
Caffeine (Stimulant)
Cocaine (Stimulant)
d-metamphetamine (Stimulant)
Diphenhydramine (Anti-histamine)
Doxepin (Anesthetic)
Ephedrine (Stimulant)
Lidocaine (Anesthetic)
Hydroxyzine (Anxiety medication)
Methylparben (Chemical preservative)
Methocarbamol (Muscle relaxant)
Nabumetone (Arthritis treatment)
Nicotinamide (Coenzyme)
Phenylbutazone (Anti-inflammant)
Phenylpropanlamine (Dexatrim / caffeine)
Potassiumchloride (Potassium supplement
Rocaine (Local anesthetic)
Propoxyphene (Analgesic – Darvon)
Sodium Bicarbonate (Acid indigestion)
Quinine (Malaria treatment)
Theophylline (Bronchial dialator)
Thiamine (Dietary supplement)
Thiopental (Barbiturate)
Thioridazine (Nausea medication)
Tripolidine (Allergy medication)
Disodium ethylenediame tetraacetic (Chelating agent for metals)
The study notes that the most common non-dope ingredients in street heroin are lactose, milk sugar, sucrose, cellulose, mannitol and other inert ingredients, but there is an increasing trend for heroin to contain psychoactive chemicals or additional substances to alter its effect through changing how it is absorbed into the body.
Interestingly, the paper also notes that professional heroin cutters are expensive, charging up to $20,000 for a kilo of heroin. This is likely due to the skill and knowledge needed to select ingredients that will have certain effects, which can be different for ’smokers’, ’snorters’ and ‘injectors’.
Ingredients that affect the vaporisation point of heroin will be more important for smokers, while adulterants that increase absorption through the nasal passages will obviously be more important for snorters.
For injectors, cutters need to be able to select ingredients that aren’t going to gum up needles or cause too much damage to the users’ veins.
Additionally, some ingredients are added purely for their psychoactive effect to give a different experience and ‘brand’ the dope.
However, owing to the cost of a professional cutter, some dealers just cut it themselves with whatever they think is reasonable, meaning all kinds of potentially fatal ingredients end up in the average bag of smack.
Have you Read the novel called 
“The Class” by Erich Segal, this novel talk about what friendship and what you will face on the real life after you’ve passed your education years and face your real life. It’s about the meeting after 25 years of graduation and finished with a dramatic conclusion.
I Personally really like this book eventhough it’s not too hot novel to read but I like it from the reality side that told very well that man live for his destiny and have a power to choose for being what he deserve..so go read this novel and feel amaze about how life can be so dramatic.
Plot Plot summary
The Class follows the diverse fates of five members of Harvard’s Class of 1958, recording the way their lives intertwine, and coming to a dramatic conclusion at their class reunion, twenty-five years later.
Andrew Eliot comes from the Boston Brahmin Eliot family. Due to his background, he always feels the pressure of high expectations, and suffers from a lack of confidence as a result. He is otherwise laid-back and friendly, and a good friend to all his classmates. To experience life without privilege and to fulfill his military obligation, he serves in the navy as an ordinary swabbie. After his military service, he makes an ill-fated marriage to the daughter of one of his father’s classmates and takes up a career in investment banking. Unfortunately, his wife is a serial adultress and alcoholic and demands a divorce, leaving him estranged from his own son and daughter, with limited visitation after his wife places both in boarding school at the age of 9 and 6, denying him custodial rights and frustrating his attempts to give them a home life. He has an interest in his family’s history during the American Revolution, which in turn leads to him following his conscience and helping organize the Moratorium Day protests on Wall Street.
Jason Gilbert, Jr., son of Jason Gilbert, Sr. né Jacob Gruenwald, has the makings of a perfect son, of whom any parent would be proud. Despite this, there is one thing that troubles him: he is in constant conflict with his identity as a Jew, despite his parents’ assimilation and conversion to Unitarianism. He experiences prejudice at several points, when denied admission to Yale and when denied invitation to the punches of Harvard’s final clubs. He also notes more pervasive racism, when a popular black athlete is denied entrance to the Hasty Pudding Club, and when a drill instructor punishes him during his service in the Marines when he inadvertently invites him to a segregated restaurant off-base, which the drill instructor interpreted as taunting. Over the course of the book, he overcomes this, due to the loss of his Dutch Christian fiancée, a pædiatrician who is killed while attending a sick kibbutznik child during a visit to Israel. The incident leads him to immigrate to Israel and become a kibbutznik himself and join the Israeli paratroopers, in exploring the Jewish identity that had been denied to him throughout his life by his family’s assimilation while being externally imposed on him. He is shown as participating in the Six Days’ War and the Yom Kippur War, and dies during the rescue of Jewish hostages from Uganda.
Theodore Lambros was born to a working class Greek family, and was admitted to Harvard with no scholarship after graduating from Cambridge Latin School, and thus must work as a waiter to support himself throughout his schooling, and does not have the wherewithal to live on campus. During the course of the book, this fact makes it difficult for him to truly “belong” to his class. All the same, he endures and eventually achieves his ambition of securing a professorship in the classics at Harvard. Tragically, he has no one to share it with, after committing adultery while on sabbatical at Christ Church, and his subsequent divorce from his college sweetheart.
Daniel Rossi is a talented pianist. His father disowns him due to his choice of Harvard in light of President Pusey’s refusal to cooperate with the McCarthy hearings, particularly after the death of his older son in the Korean War. Daniel chooses Harvard on the advice of his mentor in music, Gustav Landau, who likens the McCarthy persecutions to those of the Third Reich which he himself fled. Daniel eventually wins his father’s approval due to his success and fame as a pianist, composer of a Broadway musical and conductor of two orchestras, but finds this acceptance meaningless after years of estrangement. However, to maintain this extremely hectic way of life, he becomes alienated from his wife, and a serial adulterer addicted to stimulants and phenothiazine. The drug addiction becomes his downfall and causes severe motor dysfunction that ends his musical career, but redeems him through allowing him to reconcile with his wife and daughters.
George Keller, né Gyuri Kolozsdi, enters the United States as a Hungarian refugee following the student uprising in 1956, and is granted a place in the Harvard Class of 1958. He rushes to assimilate as quickly as possible and becomes fluent in English in seven months. He remains highly paranoid and deeply regrets his abandonment of his fiancée, a Budapest pharmacy student, in the rush to flee Hungary. His determination and fierce loyalty to his country of refuge eventually result in a position in the White House, as a protegé of Henry Kissinger. His personal detachment and unresolved emotions leave him unable to form any meaningful relationship with his wife or to consider becoming a father, and they eventually divorce. After a lengthy speech at his 25th class reunion, where he is confronted with the human toll of his policy implementation in the Vietnam War, he commits suicide, asking Andrew Eliot, as his executor, that his money be sent back to his family in Hungary.
To pray is to attempt to communicate with the higher power which created the universe. It’s something that many people share in common. While the methods of prayer may vary, the intentions are the same-to give praise, thanks, ask for help, etc, to the higher power which created the universe.
Take the time to pray. Some people pray as soon as they wake up in the morning, right before they go to sleep, or before every meal. Many people also pray during emotional times, like when they feel sad, scared, or happy. You can pray at any time of day, and as much or as little as you feel is sufficient. Some people make it their goal to maintain a state of prayer all the time by remaining conscious of their spiritual connection throughout the day. No matter what, if prayer is an important part of your life, you need to put first things first and make time to pray on a regular basis.
Tips To Pray
Find a good location to pray. You will find that you can pray anytime, anywhere, anyhow. It may help to be in a place where the focus is on spirituality (such as a church or temple) or where the environment reminds you of your spiritual bond (like a natural setting, or a spot with a big view). You can choose to pray in the presence of others, or you can pray privately.
Get into your prayer position. This depends on the belief you have, if any. Sometimes expressing your thoughts physically can make the experience more complete. People vary in how they position themselves during prayer: sitting, kneeling, lying down on the floor, hands folded, clasped, or raised high, holding hands with other people, head bowed, dancing, whirling, swaying, and so on.
Prepare for praying. This also depends on belief, if any. Some activities help to get people in the mindset of prayer. Prepare in whichever way you feel is comfortable or appropriate. People do this in a variety of ways around the world, including washing, anointing with oil, ringing a bell, burning incense or paper, lighting a candle, facing a specific direction, making the sign of the cross, or fasting. Sometimes the preparation is directed by someone else, such as a spiritual friend, a group prayer leader, or a teacher of your beliefs.
Begin the prayer. You can pray by speaking out loud, thinking, singing, etc. Some prayers are recited from memory or read from a book, while other prayers are more like conversations. Your eyes can be opened or closed. You can ask questions, seek strength, send good wishes to others, or give thanks.
Yes, sometimes you need to cry to realize that you are still a human that need to show your weak side and by crying I think our soul has already washed out, it’s like a wash machine drying out your dirt out.
I was crying last night, the reason why I was doing that is because I felt my pressure is already pressed me down lately and until that time I don’t know what should I do. I’ve been blaming to everything that I could blame but in the matter of my pressure running up it was keeping pressuring me down so this is what I felt my pressure is press me down. By that time before I was cried, I talked about my situation and during that time I was feeling angry about it and not too long this situation becoming so emotional, yelling each other and finally my emotion fell down to the lowest part, my chest was so hurt, and finally tears were coming..HHuuuaaaaa..yes that was the last time I was falling my tears, I’d been crying long enough it’s take about an half hour maybe, during that time, I was yelling about this situation and by crying amazingly I felt my pressure was taken up slowly and everytime my tears went a lot I felt my pressure was gone with that tears too, I don’t know it’s my feeling or it’s real but after I cried a lot, my mind was clear and afterward I took a bath and took a good sleep.
So according to my expriences it’s okay for you to show your weakness and admit it you need to loose for a while and wash your soul by those tears..just don’t let your self go harder if your pressure has already pressed you down, go softer with your self, ask your mind to slowing down and free your soul to heal by its own way.
written bycrier
How to protect your dream when you know all your effort to protect it is ruined down by all bad things that unfortunately come to you?? My Answer is still waiting for my action because what I feel know is my dream has completely ruined down and most of all is ruined by myself. I Let my self to stress out continuosly but this stresses don’t want to get out of me so right now I feel sick and inside and out..so how about my dream?
I keep my dream deep inside my mind and as long as my action is not compromizing with my mind it will become silly to hold on, man needs balance between mind, body, and soul so what I do know recently is to balance those factors.
“Mind creates what action you will do and action requires body to act and soul is fulfilling that action”
Is it hard to do?? yes of course because it takes a lot of condition, in my position I build this condition :
1. Shut down your mind from bad thinks
It allows you to concetrate just on the good things and let your mind accept what good only that you can think. This condition is needed and even it will allow you to push all negative factors such as your partner, house, jobs, business, etc that contribute the most negative factors in you..go erase them if you already know it
2. Shut your Mouth from Bad Words
Yes it’s hard to do if you already trumbling, your mouth always want to say harsh words to everything, me for example, I shit to God for let my self go this far..so once I thought again, it’s not right to blame everything, just blame yourself for whatever happenned in your life because what happened around you right now maybe is a part of sign that Life will give its goodness to you.
3. Open your heart and Pray
Yes, for me it’s silly to pray but maybe praying is an alternative to run away from your problem and let your problem be handled to your God, by praying, I think it’s wonderful too, we can hear our inside voices, what I heard is I’ve been blamed from my self because of shitting God..:) but it’s okay maybe it’s a way for me to get God Along with me..so Go Pray everytime you put yourself in trouble.
4. Find the reason to take Action Immediately
It’s crucial part, go have the reason to take action immediately, for my condition I must take an action because I’m alrealdy sort of money and my business need an extra caution and Set back my track to fulfill my dream is the fun part because you are the creator of your own path whether it’s fail or success, I rather not to choose because I enjoy the process of everything whether it’s fail of success.
So, this time is my priceless moment and maybe, i will have this process again because as long as I still live in this crazy old life, I know exactly what the process are it’s not far from sadness and happiness but rather I think it, I choose to face it that process.
written afterhit
Have a lot of sex to have a good feeling, I’m telling you the truth because sex is one of the most important factor in life..but don’t mix sex with religion, sin, or moral, because sex here is only one of the many body activities that mix with mind and soul.
Have you ever realized that having sex is causing fun or at least have a relax for a while, yes it’s because sex lets your body to total relax and therefore it’s better than yoga, meditation, etc because our body need it much. So I’m totally freak about someone who never have sex for entire life like damn priest or nun..What I means for Sex here is the activity that involving two person whether you are a straight or gay not by your hand and fingers only (those priests do that no wonder they look old than their age)
Let me say that sex is the most fun activity regardless of many activities in our life and that’s why porn industry never die because it touches our basic need so why religion or saint always say that sex is sin because they know how good it is and as you can read in bible the kings always have a lot of wife and bitches, unfortunately only Jesus never have sex (Poor HIM), but I’m kind of doubting at least in the middle of His teach he play around with his follower right?? that’s why he stood for that bitch that already punished by citizen (it’s because he liked her I think).
So, if you know sex is good for your body, mind, and soul why do you see sex is dirty as your religion say, just do it, get it, and then have it…no one can tell you no, it’s about you and your creator..never agree with everything that say it’s a sin. See all porn industries it’s already there for centuries even from God created that freak Adam that unfortunately made us know how good sex is..he fucked eve in front of God’s Eyes..Cool. So use your genital as its function and just relax to use it.
I write this for letting you know that SEX IS ONLY ONE OF OUR ACTIVITY..like walking, eating, sleeping, etc..so don’t forget to HAVE SEX TODAY
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A tribute To My Mom
Turbulence was coming around us, from that moment I’ve felt you are out of my life, I don’t even care about you and personally I hated you to get around me. Personally I think I don’t belong to you because I never asked to be born and I was not choosing you as my mom. But thinking back these days I was thinking about how can’t I put back my relationship with you that become relationshit now so I take back my egos to accept this as it is and personally I’ve been changing a lot since all what I want I never have it.
It took me a blasting sad desperate feeling to have this situation because it affects a lot to my personl life and it’s already contamining my personality, I become more negative to see everything because of this. Can’t you feel it mom?
For now, I want to strengthen my relationship with you maybe if everything was running well again life would be enjoyful for me because for honest this road i’ve been taking is too hard and it’s between me versus evil inside and my life is between heaven and hell, I never take a good rest for a while it’s all so tumbling down around me, you can say I’m too negative, but yes I’m still negative so to me right now to write it’s kind of relaxing my mind and soul.
It’s a tribute to my mom, as far as I notice, Mother is still a mother and Yes, we can’t choose who will be mother, it’s like we can’t choose what will happen tommorow, we can only accept it and be be blessed for what we have received.
To my Mom, If you can read this you will understand how much I love you and how much I do care about you but please let more have a gratitude in your life so you can be wiser and can see around you clearly. It’s all about you mom, I will get everything if you support me up and just let me be my self.
Most of all, I say Thanks to you
I Love U mom..
Sephy Lavianto
Have you ever heard about “give and give”, yes it’s a magic action you should do, no matter what we are, what we have, and who we are, this action is what we should do..sometimes hard for us to give what we have in term of we don’t have anything to give but have you heard about what you give is what you will receive and it’s same concept with when you do the bad things you will receive same bad things in other time and as a payback when you do the good things you will receive same good things in other time.
Let me give you an example, give away your money in your wallet to the people that you don’t know but you know this people is really need help, just give all money to them and let this action with a love feeling and release it. I swear to you that this action is noticed by universe and it will allow all the good things come to you.
So, my point is HAVE YOU DONE GOOD THINGS LATELY??
written in goodgiveback
Bring back the good old days are my concern for this period because unfortunately my old days are better than my days now, because of many things I feel like i’ve been walking into the pit hole that lead me to destruction. But nowadays I’ve been learning about many things since my age can’t stop and my kid are growing and my relationship with my fiance should be legalized, I feel like life is giving me such a challenge and it should be completed.
As a man, this is the most important to have right now, I should have more blink – blink material to accept myself as a real man (that’s my point of view about man) but let’s see nowadays I’ve been declining in material, last period I have had three cars for my self and I’ve never worried about basic needs but nowadays I only have one car and my business was broke down or not going properly plus there’s a big hole about my kid’s future.
I’ve been taking action to live my business through dramatic situation from being a low jobs employment and being business owner, I’ve been done and I never complain about this situation I am passing through because I believe one day I will remember this situation as a learning point.
I have a thinking about what’s wrong with me I think all my life I never did something mess to someone else and I always do good to my family some people say that it’s about being accept what you are and who you are and love to your parent. I think I’ve done it all. I never say no to jobs or business opportunity that come to me and money is not my concern for any job or business because I believe I should give it first rather than receive first..because give and give is my words and action.
Once people said to me and this is really about me that I’m not too independent to my self because what I feel now that I want to hard to myself and this is what I’ve been doing lately, all the basic needs I’ve been fulfilled and this is what I should do it.
No matter what situation nowadays for me but I believe one day my days are as good as my good old days where my kid and wife should not feel what I feel now.
What I’ve done now is only a life process for a better process because I believe this is only for a while and I consider life is my playground.
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